Field Notes From A Prayer Warrior

-“Prove to me that God exists.”

Prove to me that He doesn’t.

–field notes, 2023

-“If you can understand it, it’s not God.”

–St. Augustine

-Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

–1 John 4: 7-8

-And when you really analyze fear you realize, first, that it is only a natural part of us. And second, that it is the sister of hope. Because both are born from the uncertain fabric of life.

–“The Comfort Book” by Matt Haig

The uncertain fabric of life.

It’s frustrating, isn’t it?

We long for a measure of stability and certainty in an unsteady world of change and chaos. It’s why we are drawn to routines, the comfort of familiarity and predictability in all its forms.

And before we commit to something, we’d prefer a guarantee…for that new mattress…or health practice…or financial plan…or friendship…or frequently…God.

Some people demand PROOF that God exists…before they proceed…if they proceed…

Concrete confirmation that it’s not a bunch of hooey.

Now, I kinda get this. I’m the queen of “trust issues.” I had been burned in the past, by people, by…life…so, initially, I wasn’t walking in total surrender and confidence with my Creator. I, too, have wrestled with doubts…

but never doubts of His existence.

“How,” say the naysayers, “can you be so sure? Where’s your PROOF?”



Unless you are the most misanthropic curmudgeon in history, barricaded from the world in Grinch-esque isolation…

you have witnessed and experienced love.

But can you “prove” love?

It can’t be quantified or dissected or assigned an equation or manifested in a neat little physical form on a petri dish. Yet it has been recorded through the ages, woven into every culture. It is seen…and heard…and felt.

Such is love…and such is God.

Love exists.

God exists.

“Science and religion are two sides of the same deep human impulse to understand the world, to know our place in it, and to marvel at the wonder of life and the infinite cosmos we are surrounded by. Let’s keep them that way, and not let one attempt to usurp the role of the other.”–“Why science does not disprove God” by Amir D. Aczel,

Not enough?

Well, dang…I was trying to save you a little work…but I guess…upon reflection…this type of inquiry still requires a generous amount of personal investigation. With that conclusion in hand…before you begin…if you begin…a couple places to start…

Prayer and the Word.

Open your heart. Open your mind.

Set an intention to meet God, to get to know Him. It’ll take time. Any relationship worth its salt takes time and effort and commitment and love and vulnerability and trust.

But you do that, and I promise you…you’ll get all the proof you need…

And all the love and joy and light and help and hope.

It’s not a fair trade, no. You will receive far more than you give. Every time. For a lifetime, if you choose.

You will change.

You will live life in a way you never thought possible.

Ask me how I know.

Seek and you shall find…

the proof…

and Him.



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